Chichester Drive

i took pills because of joleen.

got more stupid anot?
silly.
anyways, i am going to careless abt everyone.
the more i care, the more i'll get hurt.

-BLISTERS!!

i was so dead in school until i met felicia.
she read my entry and wrote me a note.
really sweet of her.
i almost teared while reading.
no worries girl! i know i can make it! i know i can cheer up!

played badminton with justin today.
had blister on my finger and it was so hard to write.
esp when i have three tests.
anyways, it was fun.
i was practically making a fool out of myself!!

malay test was alright.
MCQ all the way.. manage to finish within 15 mins.
and i even had the time to decorate my name.
geog test?
arhh.. dont talk it man!!
i left my notes at home. so couldnt revise much.
anyways, did wrote lots of shits.
as for physics, it was a re-test.
so not much comments to make about it.

got my english common test paper two results back.
well.. it was 48/80.. really bad and worse of all, i didnt do well for paper one.
stupid composition abt commiting suicide.
oh well.. was surprised.
I WAS THE HIGHEST IN CLASS! :))
i had never scored 13/15 for summary.
great job fara! hehehhe..
looks like the paper is quite tough afterall.

im feeling much better today.
im seriously not going to care about anyone.
i feel like crying but i have to be strong.
STRONG. i want to study hard and dont bother abt anyone.only my mom, uncle and -.
this is me.
i think i had enough of "fun".
be optimistic.
i dont care abt anyone's life already.
thats it!
for now, its only school, floorball and myself in my life.
no one else and nothing else.
i dont want to have anything to do with the word SAD.

i should let go of this r/s. i dont want to make things look ugly.

i see no point compromising.

they are really good friend.

they are always there for each others and everything.

since i dont want to make things ugly and awkward i should let go of everything.

i dont want them to talk less because of me.

maybe their f/s will be better after this.

yupps.thats my decision.

i dont want to have anything to do with char and joleen.

i dont want to be hurt anymore.

im tired.

-no worries guys. wont be attempting suicide.

no point. why bother suffer?

its true. its in the gynes. im born with this depression mood.

i get depressed easily.

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING! YAY!! ((:
remember guys... no celebrations!!